Day 15: Water Violet
Oracle Card for the Day: None
Meditation: Coming after I have written this.
Mindful Moment: Today is an interesting one and so was Tuesday and so was Monday. I had a phone call with a friend back home on Sunday night and I was telling him about the remedies. I was articulate, I felt passionate and I was excited to share my blog with him. He is a good friend and probably one of the most thought provoking and disciplined humans on this planet. He is rare and unique and I am most grateful for him. His name is Dylan. Hi Dylan :D
During our chat about the remedies he said something that seemed innocent at the time but had a much bigger impact hours, days, nights later when I found myself coming back to it. He claims not to be a spiritual person or affiliated with any one religion (or least this is what I think he said) but what he has come to admire about any faith is that it brings hope. And in the specific context of the remedies he said (not word-for-word accurate quote but this was the jist of it from my recollection):
Regardless of whether people actually feel any different or see any improvements, the practice of taking 3-10 minutes a day just to check-in with yourself and become aware of how you feel in this moment - taking the remedies makes you take notice. This in itself is a remedy for everyday life because it puts you in the now!
The conversation with me proceeding to tell him about how they are similar to the oracle cards but different in a major way. My belief was: the oracle cards in-still hope and make you look for how that angel of optimism and guidance is showing up in your life, whereas the remedies are like a cold slap to the face because they highlight an emotional stress that you are struggling with in that moment. And though I love to be a shadow advocate by bringing it to the light, I contradictorily did the exact opposite. I recoiled and started to question why anyone would want to look in a mirror of improvement everyday and feel worse about themselves. I started to wonder if taking them was actually a good idea for me? Why would anyone want to remind themselves of the ways that they are inferior?!
With a sour taste in my mouth I decided to leave remedies (not even nicely in their case but rather a mess on my floor, under the altar) and leave them for a bit. I got Water Violet as a jumper on Monday when I was dashing to work and I had no time to do anything but grab the first one out of the case and bring it with me. I quickly downed the drops in a cup of water on my break and barely took notes. In fact the practice and love for it was non-existent. I felt shame.
I will write more tomorrow, but for today this is where I am at. I have felt that on Monday, Tuesday and (now) Wednesday that my journey with the remedies is in a place of doubt and that I am to experience them with sharing them in the format I have previously created.
I will update you as I feel called to and I am excited to continue my journey led by my heart rather than the framework of my brain.
The Pick: None
Observations: To myself