Day 19: Centaury
Oracle Card(s) for the Day: Oonagh ~ Easy Does It (Jumper) // Sulis ~ Bodies of Water (Jumper) // Yemanya ~ Golden Opportunity (Jumper)
Mindful Moment: A second date slash outing with the remedies!!! Although I really wanted to go to the gym bright n’ early and then make headway on filling out the missing days on the blog, I felt I should leave my laptop at home and just honour my inner child. Bring back play and properly do an outdoor session with the remedies.
Meditation: Deeper Grounding // Shaman Durek’s podcast Ancient Wisdom Today // approx. 36 minutes
Notes: (SPOILER ALERT - if you are planning to do the meditation) I chose the purple fruit with white spots and it affirmed so much!!! So in the meditation, you choose between various options and then at the end he goes over what your choices mean.
Now I woke up this morning and somehow landed on The Elevator podcast with Mama Medicine. I decided to tune in because I really like Deborah (Mama Medicine) since first discovering her back on Lacy Philips’ podcast. Her journey really fascinates me and I am intrigued by her ability to so clearly see auras. Weirdly enough, right at the start of the podcast this morning she deep dove back into this. Although I could have listened further I paused it just as she was moving on from that topic. A part of me felt inferior and unchosen but a larger of part of me felt the power of possibility.
So instead I sipped some tea, arrived on my mat and decided I indulge myself in a morning of leisure on this Easter Monday Earth Day by settling in to a chose-your-own-Shamanic-adventure-meditation <<< or at least that’s how I like to describe Meditation Wednesday to friends. I was initially drawn to his most recent meditation Episode 120. Spin: Are you ready to go into a new dimension together? And even though I wanted to feel ready, I immediately felt under-evolved so I scrolled back for an older meditation.
Now fast forward to the end of Episode 81. Deeper Grounding and the importance of the purple fruit with white spots >>> In my meditative state, when I was presented with the two fruit choices the purple one immediately grabbed my attention. However before definitively picking it, it started to shape shift, become iridescent, holographic, and completely change texture. The outer texture went from an exotic aubergine (smooth and shiny) to something similar to a kiwi (hairy and porous) and for as long as I stared at it, it kept changing before my eyes. I was intrigued but also apprehensive. My dad came to mind along with his stories of Adam and Eve in the garden of Eden and he told me not to trust it. Look how deceiving it is, was what he kept saying. But all I could think of was how it remarkable it was, like something out of Harry Potter. I was nervous that it might be a trick but ultimately too mesmerised not to follow my curiosity.
When I consumed the fruit within the meditation I saw my ligaments, and internal anatomy shape shifting in the same way the fruit had when it was outside my body and in my hand. It was remarkable. I knew I had made the right choice. At the end of the meditation Shaman Durek says:
If you ate the purple one with white dots that fruit opens your ability to see the many faces of people and energy more clearly without focusing too hard. It eases your vision and converts your physical eyes to see more energy in colour in dimensional waves. It allows you to see into the world without filters. You will also begin to understand and see dimensional gates and spirits – if you’re comfortable and allowing yourself to know what you are seeing without judgement.
Arrangement: Hours later I took the remedies out at the Hampstead Ladies Ponds after a swim in the sun. Having more courage after yesterday’s exposure at Petersham Nurseries, and with the divine support of all the women around me (note: I was by physically by myself but immersed in a female only space) I felt free to take my time with setting up the remedies. I did a quick grounding meditation that I learnt from Bree and then I began to place individually, labels out surrounding the oracles.
The Pick: I do not chose by name and somehow I intuitively knew nature would choose for me. It became a waiting game, but also a test of my being. To be with the remedies in a non-intuitive and very public space was an interesting experience. I wanted nature to choose quickly. I was hoping for a bug to crawl on one of them, or possibly gravity take one of them down the slight slope, or maybe one of the falling tree petals to delicately land on one. I kept trying to force it by placing the bugs on my hands near them, but instead they just crawled under the bottles – non-obstructed. The petals would land on the oracle cards but not touch the remedies. It was so frustrating. I even tried picking up the petals and softly blowing on them, like I would an eye-lash but that felt forced and was most unsuccessful. When all fucks given were lost and I realised I would sit with the remedies till nightfall if that’s what it took, a petal finally touched Centaury.
Observations: At peace. Quiet echoing pulse. Grounded. Stillness.
Flower Remedy: Centaury
Latin Name: Centaurium umbellatum
Grouping: Oversensitive to Influence
Issue: Discordance between what is being expressed versus what is being felt
Chakra: Heart // Green or Pink // 4th Chakra // Love for ourself and for others
Other Remedies in this Group: Agrimony, Walnut, Holly
Specific to Centaury
Bach Classification: For personality or type remedies (1st 19 - 12 Healers)
Preparation: Sun method
Primary Remedy: Inability to say no to others. Satisfying the need and opinions of others.
Secondary Remedy: Appeasing stronger personality types. Frustration from a lack of inner-strength and will-power.
Receptivity: Confidence in saying no and making firm decisions to follow the one’s true path.
The tree flowers that were falling look like Centaury. They are described in Stefan Ball’s book as small, five-pointed star-like flowers!!! Literally all of the context around this day, the meditation, and where I took the remedy reflect the need for the remedy. Insert mind-blown emoji here*
Also the more I think about the heart chakra and the remedies in this category the more I associate them with the old paradigm way of thinking and the programming we all have engrained about how we should be living. This category is about inability to be true to our heart’s desires. Interesting . . .
 Simply put it is those who sacrifice their time and energy to serve others, at the expense of their own happiness.  Think of the person one might use the word “doormat” to describe..
Reference notes are from two sources: Ainsworths Bach Flower Course by Tony Pinkus  and Flower Remedies: A Complete Guide to Dr. Bach’s Natural Healing System by Stefan Ball