Day 28: Cerato + Cherry Plum
Oracle Card(s) for the Day: Guinevere ~ True Love // Sedna ~ Infinite Supply
Meditation: 17 minutes // Zen Guitar // Kangse (Ending bell)
Notes: I am loving the Zen Guitar, something about it really helps me connect. I did my entire practice at the night and I felt found the following: zen guitar + candle flame flickering (as observed through closed eyes) + nasal breathing = in deep.
Mindful Moment: Tonight I went in without any intention but then quickly recalled what I received earlier when I was listening to Eckhart Tolle in conversation with Oprah in A New Earth (Chapter 2). He talked about the essence of the soul, the being of me - who we are at our core, if we strip away the labels and past experiences that we have become so attached to. I remember cycling earlier that day whilst listening to the podcast thinking: if I were to meet my cosmic love today what would I say if I wanted to build a relationship on the essence of my soul rather than my memories and conscious curation. It intrigued me and scared me. I worried that I might be boring and have absolutely nothing to say. Maybe they would see that I am nothing. Eckhart then went to say how some practices of meditation focus on the mantra: who am I? And like he was reading my mind, I was thinking this very same question.
So in meditation, I got grounded and opened myself up to enlightenment before proceeding to ask my soul who am I? And where am I going? The second question seems to be very occurrent. Often I feel I am preparing to move and have entered into a place of detachment. Last night on my break at work I saw Natalie Miles’ post about how this month (April) in 2019 is preparing us for 2020; and that 2020 will have a similar vibe/upgrade energy to 2012 (Quoted from Natalie). Her post went on to say:
If you reflect back on 2012 there’s a lot that has changed since then. You might be a completely different person to where you are now. When we go through transformation and upgrades it sometimes means we have to be in the darkness before we can learn and come out the other side. We’re always being nudged by the universe to grow, evolve and change. And if we’re not listening that’s when the life boulders come in to course correct us. 2020 is going to be an energetically potent year full of global and personal evolution of our systems and structures. This is why we’re cultivating, shining our light and letting go of what is no longer aligned this year. If we’re looking at this now we’re setting ourselves up for what is coming our way in 2020. If we stick our heads in the sand and resist change that’s when the life boulders can come in. But there is nothing to fear about the year ahead. Just like there was a lot of fear based messaging in 2012. Don’t feed the fear.
[You can see the full post on Natalie’s instagram @iamnataliemiles]
It got me thinking what happened in 2012: I spent the year bouncing back from a broken heart, entertaining thoughts of travel and the possibility of uprooting my life, and I was preparing to share my gifts with the world as a newly qualified expert in my field - as I neared the end of my Bachelor’s. I feel there are parallels in my life right now. I am healing my fossilised heart of 31 years and introducing it back into my body via the cultivation of a safe space. I am preparing for my quest (very Alchemist - God I loved that book!) and I am growing in my confidence to share my enlightenment with the world. I feel this.
From my meditation I felt compelled to pull two oracles to guide me in my two questions:
Who am I? Guinevere ~ True Love: Romance, playfulness, springtime, flowers, new life. In order to manifest I need to be in a space of laughter, beauty and luxury.
Where am I going? Sedna ~ Infinite Supply: Don’t worry about the future, be in the now. Spend time at the ocean, swim with dolphins, move to a beach or island community, go swimming, go surfing, go sailing.
I also pulled a third oracle to guide me into tomorrow and that was Lakshmi ~ Bright Future but I wanted to focus on what came through for my bigger questions.
Arrangement: To identify my blockages in the pursuit of these two questions I pulled two remedies to be my mirror. I made a heart around Guinevere and Sedna, ensuring that those two were touching and connected and then from there I viewed the remedies until the first one revealed itself.
Pick No. 1: What is preventing me from being who I am, true love? Cerato (again! It was also pulled on my birthday not long ago).
Observations: Steady. Unwavering. Inner calm. Unmovable flame amongst the chaos and flicker of other flames. Face tingles, melting features, falling asleep. Receiving and giving in perfect balance but like The Divine on my altar (White Tara).
Flower Remedy: Cerato
Latin Name: Ceratostigma willmottiana
Grouping: Uncertainty: Avoids making decisions
Chakra: Solar Plexus // Yellow // 3rd Chakra // Self-worth
Primary Remedy: Doubting one’s own intuition. Decision paralysis. Seeking the advice of others.
Secondary Remedy: Over talkative. Weak willed. Sense of identity is weakened in the presence of more assertive personalities.
Receptivity: Strong belief in one’s own intuition. Decisive firm resolve.
Pick No. 2: What is preventing me from getting to where I am going, to infinite supply? Cherry Plum.
Observations: Natural, effortless, deep belly breathing. Mesmerised and entranced focus. Stillness. Heavy. Grounded. Rock/boulder-like.
Flower Remedy: Cherry Plum
Latin Name: Prunus cerasifera
Grouping: Fear: Inability to act as you wish
Chakra: Sacral // Orange // 2nd Chakra // Expressive energies
Primary Remedy: Fear of going crazy or truly expressing oneself.
Secondary Remedy: Covered up fear or anxiety. Loss of rationalisation.
Receptivity: Replaces anxiety with inner peace. Quiet rationality. Refreshed control of thoughts and emotions.
Reference notes are from two sources: Ainsworths Bach Flower Course by Tony Pinkus  and Flower Remedies: A Complete Guide to Dr. Bach’s Natural Healing System by Stefan Ball